I am having trouble in my life right now for numerous reasons, but I was thinking today that one of the things that is throwing me so off balance is the lack of consistency in the most important things in my life. I used to know what was coming next, who was here now and who would be here later. I knew how those that I hold closest felt, both about me and about life...or so I thought. In the last few weeks, however, I just don't know about anything. There have been major upheavals and I'm not sure what each day will bring. Some days my son calls home, chats openly and shares his day. Some days he doesn't contact me at all and if I try to talk to him he mumbles and pushes me away. Some days he's home. Some days he isn't. The relationship with my husband is the same way too recently. Good. Bad. Hot. Cold. Smooth. Bumpy. A promising tomorrow. An empty future. This is all very confusing t...
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